I always believed in this 1 quote of Will Smith -
"Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people are better at hiding it than others!"
The story back then was that i was always the one better at hiding it. My struggle was always my very own. I never reallly let that part of me come closer to any of my friends and in some cases-boyfriends
but now , i dunno i flipped a coin ...or suddenly normal things cant happen in this world... orrr maybe i just cannot handle my own struggle anymore, things are slipping outta my hands.
Emotions are taking a toll on me. life is not easy anymore.
life easy = you cry before u sleep and then in the morning..all is well!!
life not easy= you cry at the drop of a hat, cant stop crying, cry in bed and then cry in the morning as well.
phewww!!!! crazzzieee shitt righttt...!ufff!
The great depression also teaches you realities of life.
You can cry alone and no one will be there to wipe ur tears, ofcourse how can someone when no one is arnd, tht situation I could deal with but
when i cried this time...i cried in front of close to 10 people... and out of the 10 only 4 really came to me wondering what happened.4 outta 10 friends... rest of them, were puzzled, ignored me, continued eating their chicken, drinking but never really bothered. ( maybe i shudnt underestimate their pain :p)
2 of my very good friends dint bother asking me or just being there around me when i needed them to be.
Here is the reality of my life - there are always 2 ends in my life...there is never a midway.
on 1 end all of them were sitting, eating, laughin having a gala time while on the other end i was struggling to eat even a piece of tht bread, just kept crying and kept crying and noone could notice it.
they were too busy amongst themselves to notice a girl crying in the same room as there's continously since 40-50 mins.
the question that comes to my mind now is - Are they really my friends?
me crying like tht is not normal behaviour, me crying like that was calling for help, help tht i needed from my friends. they know i never cry, they have never seen me like thtt and yet they could successfully ignore me.
wonderful to see the harsh realities in life, afterall they do make you a better person right!!!
Spiritually, all i think is, i need to deepen faith in myself, in this world and in sensei.
Life is gonna show me worse scenarios than this 1 scenario and I need to be prepared with my only weapon - FAITH!
"Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people are better at hiding it than others!"
The story back then was that i was always the one better at hiding it. My struggle was always my very own. I never reallly let that part of me come closer to any of my friends and in some cases-boyfriends
but now , i dunno i flipped a coin ...or suddenly normal things cant happen in this world... orrr maybe i just cannot handle my own struggle anymore, things are slipping outta my hands.
Emotions are taking a toll on me. life is not easy anymore.
life easy = you cry before u sleep and then in the morning..all is well!!
life not easy= you cry at the drop of a hat, cant stop crying, cry in bed and then cry in the morning as well.
phewww!!!! crazzzieee shitt righttt...!ufff!
The great depression also teaches you realities of life.
You can cry alone and no one will be there to wipe ur tears, ofcourse how can someone when no one is arnd, tht situation I could deal with but
when i cried this time...i cried in front of close to 10 people... and out of the 10 only 4 really came to me wondering what happened.4 outta 10 friends... rest of them, were puzzled, ignored me, continued eating their chicken, drinking but never really bothered. ( maybe i shudnt underestimate their pain :p)
2 of my very good friends dint bother asking me or just being there around me when i needed them to be.
Here is the reality of my life - there are always 2 ends in my life...there is never a midway.
on 1 end all of them were sitting, eating, laughin having a gala time while on the other end i was struggling to eat even a piece of tht bread, just kept crying and kept crying and noone could notice it.
they were too busy amongst themselves to notice a girl crying in the same room as there's continously since 40-50 mins.
the question that comes to my mind now is - Are they really my friends?
me crying like tht is not normal behaviour, me crying like that was calling for help, help tht i needed from my friends. they know i never cry, they have never seen me like thtt and yet they could successfully ignore me.
wonderful to see the harsh realities in life, afterall they do make you a better person right!!!
Spiritually, all i think is, i need to deepen faith in myself, in this world and in sensei.
Life is gonna show me worse scenarios than this 1 scenario and I need to be prepared with my only weapon - FAITH!
