And they say "Happy Diwali "

Everytime a firecracker goes of, the birds fly helplessly from 1 end to another...
And they say wish u a happy diwali!

Everytime a cracket burts, our pets shiver at home, hoping the tragedy would come to an end ...
And they say wish you a very happt Diwali!!!

Everytime diwali comes,accidents take place due to d the negligence of the torchbearers of this country..
And they say wish you a very happy diwali!!

Everytime diwali comes, people forget the harm that its doin and the evil that it gets along wid it...
And we still continue to wish everyone a happy diwali!!!

Everytime diwali comes im in a dilemma...
No no..not a dilemma ..

Im am pretttieee certain ..

When jim morrison sang common baby light my fire, lets try to set the night on fire

We the ignorant, took it literally!!!

The great depression of 2012

I always believed in this 1 quote of Will Smith  -

"Never underestimate the pain of a person, because in all honesty, everyone is struggling. Some people are better at hiding it than others!"

The story back then was that i was always the one better at hiding it. My struggle was always my very own. I never reallly let that part of me come closer to any of my friends and in some cases-boyfriends

but now , i dunno i flipped a coin ...or suddenly normal things cant happen in this world... orrr maybe i just cannot handle my own struggle anymore, things are slipping outta my hands.

Emotions are taking a toll on me. life is not easy anymore.

life easy = you cry before u sleep and then in the morning..all is well!!

life not easy= you cry at the drop of a hat, cant stop crying, cry in bed and then cry in the morning as well.

phewww!!!! crazzzieee shitt righttt...!ufff!

The great depression also teaches you realities of life.

You can cry alone and no one will be there to wipe ur tears, ofcourse how can someone when no one is arnd, tht situation I could deal with but

when i cried this time...i cried in front of close to 10 people... and out of the 10 only 4 really came to me wondering what happened.4 outta 10 friends... rest of them, were puzzled, ignored me, continued eating their chicken, drinking but never really bothered. ( maybe i shudnt underestimate their pain :p)

2 of my very good friends dint bother asking me or just being there around me when i needed them to be.

Here is the reality of my life - there are always 2 ends in my life...there is never a midway.

on 1 end all of them were sitting, eating, laughin having a gala time while on the other end i was struggling to eat even a piece of tht bread, just kept crying and kept crying and noone could notice it.

they were too busy amongst themselves to notice a girl crying in the same room as there's continously since 40-50 mins.

the question that comes to my mind now is - Are they really my friends?

me crying like tht is not normal behaviour, me crying like that was calling for help, help tht i needed from my friends. they know i never cry, they have never seen me like thtt and yet they could successfully ignore me.

wonderful to see the harsh realities in life, afterall they do make you a better person right!!!

Spiritually, all i think is, i need to deepen faith in myself, in this world and in sensei.

Life is gonna show me worse scenarios than this 1 scenario and I need to be prepared with my only weapon - FAITH!

chant all the way!

Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumoured by many.
Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books.
Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders.
Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations.
But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”


 

my immortal!

sweet sweeet memories of the long walk at marine drive with D.

its been uite some time since i felt good about myself & he is one of the reasons why i could achieve that peace of mind.

time just flies by wheneverr with him.

the discussions about life, routines, future & so many interesting topics are worthy of being written...

just a tad-bit low on memory but  trying to enjoy the passing moments.

this one was on a saturday - august 20th-2011. as usual we went for a walk after our field work n jobin accompanied us as well...

he is the one who took this pic & its blooody brilliant..

feel like updating many more pixx...n the stories behind them...would do that soon :)

buddhism - http://www.lifepositive.com/Spirit/Buddhism/Seeds_of_social_transformation102005.asp

1. One of the first things I noticed was the effect those practicing buddhism began to have on their old friends. Their attempts to cultivate skillful speech and mental states overflowed into their social interactions. They began to emerge more truly as individuals, and their friends and relatives found that they would no longer just go along with the old 'group' attitudes, but began to think and act for themselves. Their positivity became stronger and they were more able to give support in difficulties.
2. I have found invariably that those who are following a spiritual practice through Buddhism avoid the two common extreme reactions to caste discrimination and violence. Not only are they less likely to be inflamed, but they are also unlikely to go to the other extreme of being cowed and intimidated. They are able to take a more individual and creative approach to their centuries-old oppression.
3. They understood from their own experience that they could change their mental states through dhamma practice. Although many did not meditate regularly, they would go away changed. They would carry with them confidence, born out of personal experience, that the dhamma worked, that it did bring about changes in the mind. They would give up old unhelpful practices such as alcohol abuse, and would become more sensitive to the way they treated others, especially women, and to social practices such as dowry.
4. With a confidence born out of their dhamma practice, they do not feel overwhelmed by, and passive to, difficult situations, but on the contrary feel empowered. This is proof that spiritual practice does bring about not only individual change, but can also lead to social change.
   

To err is human!

Human beings are weird..I could have used fancy adjectives to describe them but being weird suits them the best.

we have so many privileges around us but blame it on the upbringing or blame it on the ignorance on our end we tend ignore them.

luxury is defined in terms of the money the person has, property and the worth of an individual based on the assets. people dont value time anymore. every1has the "KISKE PAAS TIME HAI" attitude.

  ehe im the one to talk..i lost touch with myself completely as well, tanks to love and its atrocities..but its during this time i realised how important it is to remove those 15 minutes for yourself. it could be in a train or bus or walk or catching tht much needed sleep..whatever makes you complete is what will help you realise the importance small small things in life.

its so easy to err about the things that we dont have and so difficult to cherish what we have. life is pretty simple if u come to think of it, just try filling life in every moment and you'll know how great your life is.

problems will come and go, just like my ferrero rochers box, but they wont stay for long..you'll find a solution at one point of time or the other. the solution could be found after speaking to someone or writing about it or just thinkin about alternatives...are we reallly so busy complaining that we have no time left to ponder over things any more.

i guess the answer to this question is pretty clear, its jst we've managed to clogg our minds with shitttttttt....

flush the shitt down the drain n ur good to go.

ive made a conscious decision to avoid complaining..i sincerely have, but will the demons in my life let me be positive???

All is ask for is acceptance

I am basically someone who doesnt care much about whatever the hell is going on around me. some people define what should be important for me and i always wonder why should i listen to these some people.

At the end of the day, the only principle that you can follow is ''TO EACH HIS OWN''.
Thats what i'm ll about and thats why people at home fail to understand me!
I'm using the term fail as even though i want them to understand me there is this certain blockage in their minds that doesnt let them understand who i really am and what i really want.

You, on the other hand, accepted me for who i was and just as you did so ,i wouldnt mind changing for you at all.

I wouldnt mind listening to whatever you say and i would love to blindly follow it.just because you understand me for who i really am.

i tried to have some decent conversations with people at home and i failed as they weren't really interested in what i felt.I tried to tell YOU about my friends and you were glad to hear me and enjoyed talkin to me.

Discussing what life is all about or what i feel about ceratin issues is certainly fun with you as you listen, you really do listen to what i say, but when it comes to ''my family'' i'm glad im a closed book in front of them which they are least interested in.

I dont hear a lot of ''i was this,'' i was that'', ''i would have been this, or'' you could have been that'' from u...but all i hear is that its alright to be who you are, if ever you stumble i'm their to catch your back and tell you where and why are you doing the wrong things.

i'm not very good with talkin on the phone but i can surely go on typing or writing my feelings whenever i wish to..and i felt to do so for you, JUST FOR YOU.

the girl who likes to stay in her room woudlnt mind going out shopping with you even if she has to get up from her comfortable cozy chair which helps her to be in an altogether different world of reality that she considers as beautiful and not the reality that others want her to believe!

thank you for touching my heart!
it surely is made up of stone but bits of it do break from time to time for special people like you!

All i ask is to keep this beautiful memory of tea and the conversation and what i felt about when i came to your place the other day between us, as people who consider themselves as my well -wishers wont really understand what i feel.

All is ask for is acceptance and you gave it to me, all i ask for is some more quality time with you where i can just be myself and you let me be, would surely come meet you again, whenever that is,and til then i pray for you and your well being and hope to cherish such moments for life!

love,
pragati.

(for meenakshi aunty)